Holding on to the past…just a little bit.
One year ago from now I was in Australia coming very close to the end of my study abroad experience. I left for Australia on January 4, 2008, arrived in Sydney on January 6th, and traveled most of the Eastern coast of Australia during the 6 months I was there. It was such a surreal experience, and it’s even more surreal sitting here reflecting upon it. Anyway, rather than take a really long walk down memory lane, I’d rather write about other things for now. I’m sure I’ll come back to my Australian adventures some other time.
I didn’t feel like starting a completely new blog from scratch because that would entail all the logistics such as designing the layout of a new site. Hence, I have decided to resurrect the blog I began whilst studying abroad at University of Melbourne. The course I took was called “Television and Commodity Culture,” and it was probably one of the most interesting classes I’ve ever taken. All my courses abroad really challenged my critical thinking skills and the professors always urged me and my fellow students to dig much deeper than our potential. It became frustrating at times, but I ultimately succeeded and my professors enjoyed my ideas as they were, fresh from the United States. But yes, this course required me to start a blog and post my assignments via my site. The other students in my class got really involved in their blogs and posted a lot more regularly than I did. As you can tell, I only have a few posts: ultimately, the bare minimum required for the course.
I enjoyed the blog for the brief moments I actually used it, and I’m proud to say that my Final Essay post evolved into my Senior Thesis paper during my senior year of college (which I also presented at a conference in New Jersey).
I’m usually the type of person who is constantly moving forward, forgiving, forgetting, and always searching for the next thing, but bringing this blog back to life will allow me to hold on to my memories of Australia while simultaneously creating new memories.
Ok. For real. I just need some structure. I’m stuck at home, jobless, and I need an outlet. I need something, even if it is just a blog that no one reads. I need to start my life! I’ve been living for 22 years and I’m pretty sure I’ve experienced more than the average 22-year-old. I won’t go into any of my extreme life experiences, but I’m ready to move forward. I’m ready to take my experiences and live a fulfilling, new life. My thoughts whirl uncontrollably when I think about all the possibilities the world has to offer, and yet, here I am sitting in my bed on a Monday night waiting for the season finale of “Keeping Up With The Kardashians” to come on. How pathetic.
So I’m going to cut to the chase and start brainstorming…
I’m 5′7″. I weigh approximately 157lbs. I would like to weigh 140lbs. Or simply be toned and in great shape, whichever one comes first. I want to run the NYC Marathon before I turn 25. I want my knees to be in better running condition so I can achieve my goal. I want to stop having a weird obsession with food. I want to stop thinking about food when I’m not even hungry because even just the thought of food makes my stomach growl. I want to drink as much water as I possibly can every single day. I want to get most of my Vitamin C from fresh fruit, but if I have to drink 8 ounces of orange juice instead, I guess that will have to do. I want to stick to my daily workout routines. I want to run as much as possible, as safely as possible. I want to join the New York Road Runners and run as many races as I can. I want to be more active! I am not overweight, but I am big. I have fat all over my stomach and torso. My face has become pudgy. I want this to all go away so I can finally frolic around in a bikini and the only thing I worry about when I wear my bikini is whether or not my bikini line is properly shaved (I know that’s gross, but it’s better to worry about that than my fat stomach bouncing to and fro). Plus, I want to be able to share my beautiful heart tattoo on my rib cage with the world!
I haven’t exercised since last Thursday. I went up to my summer house all weekend and ended up getting sick. It may only be allergy-related, but still…sick is sick. A cold is a cold! I want to run, but I can’t breathe! Ugh. Very frustrating. Tomorrow I’m going to do my best to work out as much as I can. It will all depend on my state of health. I at least want to do 20 minutes of pilates, some yoga, my fitness ball workout, and if my health allows, I will run.
In the health section on msn.com today, I calculated that in order for me to lose those 17lbs the healthiest way possible, I must continue exercising and cut out 500 calories of my daily count. As of now I consume a LOT of calories per day. So, if I drop down to 2,000 calories per day then that’s actually more than 500 per day. If I stick with this, I’ll be losing weight in no time! However, I have a feeling it will be difficult for me since I’m technically not even overweight to begin with. I guess we will see what happens. Maybe this blog will help me achieve my goals.
More brainstorming…
Tomorrow I want to finish unpacking my college life. My belongings are scattered all over my house, my room is still a mess, and I don’t even want to discuss the state of the basement. It’ll make my parents happy if everything is put away.
I want to be more diligent about cleaning up after myself. Do the dishes, try and cook some meals (or one dish at least). I want to read more and finally finish the Twilight series. I want to stop cursing and give people more compliments. I want to stay in touch with my friends on a more regular basis and call them before they call me. I want to write out cards to people who have touched my life over the last 4 years. I want to figure out the most effective way for me to save money.
I want to floss my teeth every night before bed, wear my mouth guard at night, and wash my hands frequently. I want to put on moisturizer after every shower I take.
It is now almost 9:30pm. I want to write in here every day. I also want to use my physical journal daily too. Goal: write something…anything…everyday. I will make daily goals for myself. Let’s see if my life will start taking a new direction and a new purpose. After all, the possibilities are endless…
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